Words by Marcia

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Cool Breeze

I can feel the essence of the cool breeze Sounds of serenity encompass me Taking me away to that special place Where imagination runs wild, like a school yard child Where curiosity is played like a game of hide and seek Tag, you're it tag me into an open game of charades Making my heart skip as a game of hop scotch My thoughts become things My thoughts ride the roller coaster of the cool breeze Oh how cool this breeze is too Surrounding me here in this cool place this cool place that will soon turn warm Then hot with the Summer's season change But for now, Spring performs like an actor for all to see One two three, one two three Upon the beach's stage Hoping to steal the show yet again I too wanna perform for all to see Letting go of all worries and all misery Escaping like a convicted felon From the prison of life Hoping and wishing that all will be right All will be well all to be secure And safe in a place that will keep my body warm I wanna danc

I Let Go

I let go of the unhappiness I let go of the pain I let go of the sadness, that had my tears flowing like rain I let go of the fear, that being successful could bring I let go of the thoughts of failure, that would leave me in shame I let go of the hurt I let go of the past I let go of a love, that could never ever last I let go of the worries I let go of the cares I let go of the procrastination, that would leave me unaware I let go of the negative I let go of the anger I let go of all the frustration that led my life to danger I let go of the self-pity I let go of the blame I let go of the life that did nothing for my name Doubt, insecurity, mistrust, unfaithness, abuse I let go of all these things, for them, I have no use I let go Marcia S. McNeill 1-1-2015

The Urge

Fighting back the urge The uncontrollable Unbearable, Urge ... The urge to not make the next move For my next move is supposed to be my best move Well, isn’t that true? What’s a girl to do? Do I call? Do I text? Do I text, do I call? Do I call, do I text? Please enlighten me on what to do next Feeling as though the mere thought Of, you Is pulling at a part of my heart that I refuse to let go Waiting on you to reach out to me Has me over here losing my control As my story begins to unfold Lies in my head are told “I’m okay” That maybe just maybe I am better off “This way” Then maybe I’m just crazy and I shouldn’t be so soft I scoff, as I cough appearing at a lost For words, better yet for thoughts all together When I stepped out and took this leap of faith I just knew that this time would be better Yet I find myself sitting here all alone once again Trying to hold it all together Thoughts of you that ring true Has her throbbing, she’s becoming wetter And

The Weight

I could feel the weight of her world upon my shoulders Yes, upon my shoulders the weight of her world I flashback to once upon a time when I was a little girl Brought into this world by a mother and a father My mother and my father I was brought into this world A world that was created by my Father A world that was created long before my birth Long before my delivery, a time before my worries You know they say to practice what you preach And I teach, I was taught from birth to love Yet, at times I feel that love doesn’t love me back Instead, the kind of love that I attract is the kind of love that attacks And smacks and hurts and bruises one’s ego Making you second guess your first thought And ignore your second and third thoughts Makes you at times question your whole entire existence A lot of pieces of my heart, tend to be missing So yes, I could feel the weight of her world upon my shoulders For I, for I, me, I am not getting younger, yet older I feel paranoid,

Reminder

I don't have to remind myself, just how much I love you You on the other hand, seem to find the time to remind, me that you love me when the world is crashing and crumbling down, around you You feel the need to explain yet, some things are without explanations this here reality that I am facing appears to be a nightmare that I can't wake up from running in the long dark hallways all alone, all alone by myself but am I truly by myself? for whenever I look behind me, I see another distraction and in front of me, yet another obstacle I want to love you the way you deserve to be love but what about me, would that leave me to be less deserving of a love that catches you by the hand and secures your heart or is it the kind of love that is at times your rock, then sinks you I think about you all the time and I can't help but miss you but miss me with the bull, miss me with the blame miss me with the tit for tat in a game that remains the same lonely nights wand

Supporters

Supporters are going to support while the haters are going to hate but while the haters are busy hating I won't let them disturb my fate you see I have a dream just as anyone else Whose goal is to be successful and it should seem that the new me I am better than my old self which is helpful We hustle and we grind already with fear of failure clouding our minds In a place where to be liked or to get a single like is simply too much for someone's time Putting more emphasis on the negativity in one's life Where the measure of positivity gets lack of accolades and fails to compare in the struggle to applaud what's right Understand that it isn't just about me It's about him and him and them and we Together building a future to keep us off these streets To make sure and ensure that they have more than enough food to eat More than enough knowledge to speak more than enough love to keep to be restless and sleepless and unable to