Words by Marcia

When you can’t sleep, count sheep But the sheep don’t appear The echoing of your name Is the only thing I hear In my mind, as if my brain Vanishes, leaving an open space Throughout the village of mountains I hear the echo and in the snow I see your face When you can’t sleep, count sheep Still the sheep aren’t in sight The fire in my mind that burns for you During sleep, once again ignites Toss and turn in restless sleep To get close to you, I sometimes walk In reality you’re not around So why in my dreams, do you stalk? When you can’t sleep, count sheep But when I do, the sheep quickly turn Into sweet memories of you In restless sleep you need me When I awaken, it’s not true written by Marcia S. McNeill From: More than a Title book

You would have me beliving, thinking it was me when in reality, the mental problem is you I sit here trapped in a space not knowing which to believe the thoughts in my head or verbal indications from you one minute say one thing, the next saying the opposite i know that this is how you are, so why do I let it bother me I wish that you would just stop it for I am lost trapped in a space, wandering without a clue if the words that you say to me are words that are true called me psycho, yet you are the one that needs to be committed I talk to you and remain confused about what it is you're admiting I do the things I do simply because you leave me with no choice afraid of what you will do next, makes me silence my own voice saying that you can be with whomever only makes things worst very next moment you saying you will put me first which one is it because you seem to not know yourself sitting here like a sitting duck second guessing myself I only know you love me, bec

Side tracked Lost in your so called love for me Forgot about all that was important to me Losing track of the time that God gave me Letting you constantly blind me Being with you made me forget how to write Beautiful words within my soul ignite Once you are gone away from me You see, I can no longer afford to be, a part of your misery Desperately seeking a new place to fly Leaving you be, must let sleeping dogs lie For your misery shadowed what was supposed to be our happiness And we have been side tracked by this constant reminder of your sadness That leaves me lost walking alone in the dark Unable to sleep, unable to eat, or love from my heart The way I was taught to What was wrong with it being all about you? So much to be wronged when I had a family of my own Neglecting them behind this mess, we haven’t grown Together, yet much far apart The love I have for you I wish it had never start Love doesn’t take you down past roads you already been Especially where the road leads you to