Words by Marcia

You would have me beliving, thinking it was me when in reality, the mental problem is you I sit here trapped in a space not knowing which to believe the thoughts in my head or verbal indications from you one minute say one thing, the next saying the opposite i know that this is how you are, so why do I let it bother me I wish that you would just stop it for I am lost trapped in a space, wandering without a clue if the words that you say to me are words that are true called me psycho, yet you are the one that needs to be committed I talk to you and remain confused about what it is you're admiting I do the things I do simply because you leave me with no choice afraid of what you will do next, makes me silence my own voice saying that you can be with whomever only makes things worst very next moment you saying you will put me first which one is it because you seem to not know yourself sitting here like a sitting duck second guessing myself I only know you love me, bec...

Side tracked Lost in your so called love for me Forgot about all that was important to me Losing track of the time that God gave me Letting you constantly blind me Being with you made me forget how to write Beautiful words within my soul ignite Once you are gone away from me You see, I can no longer afford to be, a part of your misery Desperately seeking a new place to fly Leaving you be, must let sleeping dogs lie For your misery shadowed what was supposed to be our happiness And we have been side tracked by this constant reminder of your sadness That leaves me lost walking alone in the dark Unable to sleep, unable to eat, or love from my heart The way I was taught to What was wrong with it being all about you? So much to be wronged when I had a family of my own Neglecting them behind this mess, we haven’t grown Together, yet much far apart The love I have for you I wish it had never start Love doesn’t take you down past roads you already been Especially where the road leads you to...

I want to be happy Happy for a while I want to smile a smile so wide As to no longer hide The agony inside To be happy, happy for a while Like I was when I was a little child No worries, no troubles, no problems Someone was always there Always there to solve them I was told it takes more muscles to frown Than to smile, so why is it easier for me to frown? I’m fed up of always looking Looking like I’m down I have joy that out weighs my pain I have a beautiful smile That can out shine the rain What would it take for me to have that? That moment to rejoice in a laugh as long as a mile I want to be happy And just smile for a while Written by Marcia S. McNeill Q: When is a relationship worth all your happiness?

Hours upon hours I listen to your pain and minute after minute you make me feel more ashamed ashamed of who I am, ashamed of my accomplishments ashamed of doing better than you, you're always passing judgements have you ever just took the time to ask your own self why? why  your life is filled with such misery, maybe you're the reason behind your demise blaming everyone except yourself, unable to accept responsibility for your actions instead putting others down who had nothing to do with your pain, brings you satisfaction what a tangled web you weave, getting stuck within your own web I hold on to every word you say, and still can't get what's going on inside your head how can you expect good to come out of the multiply bad things that come out your mouth your crude ideas and wicked thoughts are what's gonna keep your lips stuck in a pout nothing I can do and there's nothing I could ever say to make you change your song of sorrow that you sing to m...

Question after question as though you want to be just like me doing whatever it is that your mind thinks to mock my moves I am not a teacher teaching you how to read yet you follow what you think is how I am instructing you Monkey see, monkey don't do over here trying to compare our actions, boy you need to stop gonna wind up making me do something you will fear pressure busting a pipe, well go on ahead and pop Now tell me something that only you can tell me so well how can you justify what it is you are doing? merely on a feeling deep inside your head to be messing with chicks sucking and screwing is gonna have someone six feet under dead I haven't done anything wrong but to you I can't seem to do a thing right you can do what you want to, is the song exaggerating that I be texting all through the night so now you wanna assume, tryna turn the tables putting it off on me so you can disappear you don't need an excuse when you're already able to co...

A promise of togetherness, ‘til death do us part Giving the chance to fix a broken heart The pleasure of the first intense kiss A warm feeling to just reminisce The divine caress of the romantic touch A feeling so good one can't get enough The heart's desire, a rare moment To try to get it back, one can only dream of it Where is the love? Like the heavens sent from above To soar in the sky without a clue Swept off your feet, is it true? A daring encounter dipped in chocolate Taste the strawberry that is dipped the way you like it Making love with the one whom steals your heart A promise of togetherness, ‘til death do us part Where is the love when these feelings have passed? Only in memories that will forever last Truth be it told, as the story unfolds For it will never disappear As sweet nothings are whispered in the ear And when the last drop of love has finally been made And the feeling just makes you want to shed a tear You will look at your partner a...

I stare into the mirror unable to see the pretty face that is me for I am blinded by a love that keeps me trapped from me myself and I try to fight back but the three of us can't compete to the size of your attitude, your ugly words just defeat I wanna be happy when you don't I wanna smile when you won't if things are this bad now, how can we expect them to change? when all you do is pour down your hate thoughts upon me like a freezing rain pain, beyond the pain of saying I love you for I just can't believe that you would treat the closest thing to you as your worst enemy your the one that keeps straying away like a cat and I am the one that keeps letting you come back all because you made yourself believe that I am doing the very same thing so if your this damn unhappy with me buddy why won't you walk away probably for the same reason I can't , I just wanna say that things could be different between you and I if you would just leave me I would...