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Side tracked

Side tracked

Lost in your so called love for me
Forgot about all that was important to me
Losing track of the time that God gave me
Letting you constantly blind me
Being with you made me forget how to write
Beautiful words within my soul ignite
Once you are gone away from me
You see, I can no longer afford to be, a part of your misery
Desperately seeking a new place to fly
Leaving you be, must let sleeping dogs lie
For your misery shadowed what was supposed to be our happiness
And we have been side tracked by this constant reminder of your sadness
That leaves me lost walking alone in the dark
Unable to sleep, unable to eat, or love from my heart
The way I was taught to
What was wrong with it being all about you?
So much to be wronged when I had a family of my own
Neglecting them behind this mess, we haven’t grown
Together, yet much far apart
The love I have for you I wish it had never start
Love doesn’t take you down past roads you already been
Especially where the road leads you to a dead end

Written by Marcia S. McNeill
July 2011

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